"For the Love of a Son"

So, I haven't talked or seen my dad for a few months now, and really, it feels kinda good. I'm dealing with it all. However, there's many different things that have got me threw the process such as Demi Lovato's song called "For the Love of a Daughter" which is about not talking to her dad for a long time and that she is trying to turn to him for help as well as trying to tell her father that he has to choose between his alcohol and his daughter. This is exactly what I am going through as a son instead of a daughter. She states, "Before even I love you, starts to sound like a lie" which is exactly how I feel when my father says it to me. She's a huge inspiration to me and she has taught me how to stay strong and that every little thing will eventually be okay. Her speeches that she gives are amazing and I personally don't know what I would do without the amazing speeches and advice that she gives her fans. I have also related my life to the song when read the book "Defending Jacob" by: William Landay when Andy visits his father in jail and the father explains to the son on how he didn't feel like his father and that he was upset that he couldn't be a part of Andy's life due to the fact that Andy didn't want him to be. This relates to the words in the song, "I'd love to leave you alone but I cant let you go." It's a very hard choice to make and it's hard to make that decision as a child. But, for now, things need to stay just the way they are. I have nobody to turn to for help. It will have to stay that way in order for me to be peaceful. I have too many issues of my own and I cant afford another issue with my dad.